I am a little percolating coffee pot…

Writing a great deal over the last few weeks, I have ideas scribbled and formed in various places: notes grouped by subheadings on my phone; beginnings and middles of posts in Notepad; musings, lists and random 3am thoughts in my notebook.

There seems to be two forms these things take:

They are one short sentence.


They are a thought that becomes a paragraph that oozes into treatise winding and bending down the page in lengthy strides that circle about  encompassing more and more material until the ideas continue to feed back upon themselves and all is lost in the muddle.

It’s all in my head

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To be yourself…

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Courage and Confidence

“Every morning a little more courageous. Every night a little more confident.”

– me

What are you doing?!

Today I did something, that for me, was quite hard.

Along the way, I was reminded of a few life lessons:

Coffee Lesson: A-B-C

Conversation with self-identified small biz owner in blah field…

Me: “Oh, interesting. Do you blah-di-blah-blah or do you blee-blah-blah?”

Him: “Well what we do is kinda hard to describe actually. See we were on the internet really, really early. I can remember when I…” (after 10min story still no idea what he does)

Me: *tune out*

If you can’t respond to my attempts to connect to what you do (eg “Oh actually we do a blend of both…” or even “That is what you think of when you hear blah right? Actually we…”) then at least have a clear answer to the question of: what do you do?

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My Kind of Town

I slipped back into my city as if returning from vacation instead of dropping in for a weekend visit. The weather is slightly different seven months later but it feels more like only seven days since I left. Conversations break the spell as lots of “what are you doing here?!”s were not part of my daily NYC life.

My favorite Maintenance Man from my old office building and my bagel guy both remembered my name (and I theirs) with a warm smile. The latter, (corner of 6th and 45th) reached expertly for my cinnamon raisin without missing a beat. A brief catch up on family and workout routine, turning to weather and baseball… our chat wandered the usual paths of acquaintance and ended with a “see you soon.”

I walked away pondering the nature of “soon,” relieved to know my ideas of being able to drop back into this, my city home, were not complete delusions. My list of Must-Eats over the next 72 hours my marker that I don’t currently reside here… But boyhowdy do I live here.

In addition to those meals, I aimed to cross things off my internal “I never did…” list.

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